Pride and dignity

pride: we all have it, but not everyone acknowledges how much it of a grip it has on themselves

but trust me when i say this

it hurts me

more than it hurts you

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The news scared me out of my sleep this morning

How terrifying it is to wake up to news stating that a stabbing act of terrorism happened right in the heart of borough market.

To think I was just there less than 2 years ago, walking from my hostel to london tower and passing by the road leading to borough market. My eyes widened to the news on my phone of the incident happening at 5+ in the morning- Singapore time. I thought of all my friends who were in London. Some had already marked themselves safe on facebook, the others did not. I couldn’t imagine watching someone get stabbed right in front of me, let alone multiple times. How the survivors must have felt, going through such a traumatic experience.

Terrorism is real, and this isn’t limited to just London but to so many parts of the world.

With the current surge in terrorism attacks, it really brings me to wonder… why? And am I missing out a big picture here?

Be the friend you always wanted to have

As we talked I heard them say

“The outcome would have been the same if you had intervened.

Just that you would have ended her suffering earlier by doing something.

It was then that i felt everything in me

ebb away

Don’t hold grudges , you were once a friend.

I will always remember the good times we had and take that part of me with me wherever I go

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They are not me

Today i learnt that people were not hard by nature

they were taught that being hard was the only choice they had to survive

“man up or be beat by others in life” 

“everything’s a competition”

“lose out once and you’d lose out in life”

something that played in every single thing they did

something that resonated with me in every single thing i did

“don’t try to be an overachiever” they told me

“you were never cut out for this” glaringly

but when my heart hardens

I hate the person I see

I learnt from that day on not to listen to what they have to say about me

because they fail to realize

that with good faith and hell lot of hard work

everything is possible when you believe

and nothing really matters

if they are not me 

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xx cal