“You held onto that possibility during your duller moments. But now you’ve lived out that possibility. You went back to him, and it wasn’t magnificent. So not only are you saying goodbye to him, you’re saying goodbye to the possibility of him. The hope of him. You’re putting yourself through all of this because you just want something to happen. But he’s not the answer. you don’t miss him. You just miss those times when your life was more interesting than fine.
Don’t go back to him. When you feel yourself coming close, just remember that he’s not going to make your life more than fine. He’s not going to change anything.
You do that on your own. “